There is a sleepiness I only get in the afternoon.
Caffine doesn’t even make me immune.
It happens when that bright strip of sunshine spreads across a scene.
That point in time completely unforeseen.
A brief swell of happiness comes along.
A beautifully serene moment, that doesn’t last for long.
An alpenglow-resemblant sight, and it’s gone in an instant.
In that moment, I feel reminiscent.
A nostalgia for the present.
Not wanting this minute to end— the negativity I’m trying to prevent.
But these times are usually paired with a sadness.
The sadness, I can’t really express.
The reasons for this sadness are not exactly justifiable.
I just don’t feel quite stable.
It’s one of those times when I’m sad and I can’t pinpoint why.
When my mind is no more my ally.
When I am thinking too much.
And I’m caught in a pessimistic clutch.
When I am trapped in this grasp, the second I am alone, I feel lonely.
Yet, when I’m with people, I want to be alone.
It’s an uneasy mood.
And it makes my insecurities protrude.
I have to attempt to view things from a different perspective.
And try for a moment to stop being so introspective.
After a while, I can dampen the feelings.
I just have to keep my mind focused on things that are appealing.